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I’d forgotten how exhausting a newborn could be.  Alexander’s younger brother, Daniel was born November 17 and has been keeping me very busy.  I barely have time to sleep much less do things like update my blog.

I’ve been so tired, I don’t think I’ve really had a chance to process my feelings about Alexander’s anniversary.  It’s hard to believe Alexander has been gone 3 years.  On his anniversary date, we spent a quiet day at home and went to cemetery in the afternoon.

Recently, a friend asked me if it gets any easier.  I told her I don’t think it gets easier.  Alexander’s loss has become part of me and is something I must deal with on a daily basis.  Some days are better than others. Now that Daniel has arrived, I’m trying to find a balance between being happy for the child that I have here with me and being sad and missing the child that is gone.

I talk to Daniel about Alexander and we look at pictures of him. I think Alexander and Daniel would have been great friends and I wish my boys could have grown up together.

Today, was the 2nd Annual Alexander’s Run.  Though the weather forecast predicated rain and a mix of snow, we decided to have the fun anyway.  We had no idea how many, if any, runners would show up on race morning.  Some people didn’t make it but Dan and I were truly surprised, overwhelmed, and grateful for all the support we received at this morning’s event.

The tents we’d arranged for didn’t arrive on time but no one complained as we had to scramble for tents.  The runners were patient as we opened registration late.  The kids who did come in costumes were cheerful as they stood under the tents and grooved to the music of Alex Mitnick.  It was an amazing day and I’m so glad we continue to celebrate Alexander and the other SUDC children with this run.