I haven’t posted in a while because things have been status quo.
I think about Alexander all the time. The sadness and loneliness I feel at him not being here have become my constant companions. Most days I manage okay. I don’t cry every day like I used to and I can think about the happy moments.
Dan and I went to see Alexander’s headstone for the first time on Friday. It’s actually a family headstone since we also have our names engraved on it, too. Seeing my own name on the stone didn’t bother me. Seeing Alexander’s birth and death (still a hard word for me to say) dates at such a young age brought on another wave of sadness. Parents are not supposed to outlive their children.
I should be planning Alexander’s 3rd birthday party and instead I’m designing a headstone. It’s just another very sad experience in a long line of sad experiences I’ve had since December 20, 2008.
Remembering Alexander 