Before I got pregnant, what became Alexander’s room started out as my office. There are two closets in his room so I left a lot of my work stuff in there and shared the space with Alexander. I have a laptop so I was able to have a roving office in our house.
A couple of weeks ago, I decided to move my stuff from Alexander’s closet to the guest room. I just couldn’t bear to continue to go into his empty room everyday when I needed to get something. Now, when I go into his room, it’s to reflect on all the wonderful memories I have of Alexander.
Instead of my work stuff, Alexander’s closet is now full of photos and albums. I think of it now as my memory closet.
Moving things from one room to another was a big step for me. It’s the first real change I’ve made to Alexander’s room. Everything else remains the same. The crib is still there as well as all his clothes and toys. I still haven’t been able to wash the basket of laundry but there is no hurry. I just have to continue to do things when it’s right for me.
I miss my little guy so much.