A conversation I had with Dan on November 25:
Dan (smiling): Happy Birthday! How are you feeling?
Me (through tears): Sad. I’m just sad.
Dan (hesitantly): Alexander sad.
Me: Yes, Alexander sad.
So, we now have a new term to describe our emotions when we’re feeling sad about Alexander and not something else.
This December will mark TWO years that Alexander has been gone and our “new normal” continues to evolve.
Remembering Alexander 
Even if I’m not commenting – know that you are in my thoughts and prayers, especially this time of year. I can only imagine how difficult the holidays are with Alexander’s death right in the midst of it all. Praying for peace for you!
Didn’t know it would be a new term. But, there’s a BIG difference between being sad about losing Alexander and being sad about anything else.
Alexander Sad can lurk around for a day or, for me, it can pop up, make me cry and then I’m sort of OK all within a couple of minutes.
I suspect there are a lot of people with a singular and severe tragedy in their lives that have similar feelings. I also suspect that most of them are based on the loss of a child.
I think that is pretty perfect, I might have to steal it from you and instead of just saying I’m sad, I’ll say I’m Megan sad.
Thinking of you.