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Happy Birthday, Sweet Alexander!

Happy Birthday, Sweet Alexander!  I can’t believe how quickly May 3 has come around again.  After dropping Daniel off at school, I decide to go have breakfast and distract myself with some work on my computer.  I usually walk on Thursday mornings but didn’t want to be alone with my thoughts on this bittersweet day.  I was sitting at the table for about 3 minutes before I started to cry.  I couldn’t stay.  I gathered up my things and rushed out to the car where I sat and cried some more before heading home.

I’ve spent most of the day trying to distract myself.  I volunteered at Daniel’s school, ran some errands, and took care of some things around the house.  Alternately, I let myself cry.

6 days until Alexander’s 11th birthday

Alexander’s 11th birthday is in 6 short days.  In the years since his death, I’ve gone through varying emotions near his birthday. In the early years, I was definitely very sad and needed to hide from the world.  The last couple of years, I’ve been sad but better able to cope.   I haven’t cried in a long time but today I can’t seem to stop. It took just one small thing to trigger me this morning and my emotions completely overwhelmed me.  The therapist said to let the tears flow but somehow, I’ve got to pull it together before picking Daniel up from school.