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April 30…3 more days

I feel like a sobbing mess.  After I dropped Daniel off at school today, I went for my usual Monday morning walk.  Thinking about Alexander’s upcoming birthday and what I wanted to do to celebrate the day. The people at the mall must have thought I was crazy because I couldn’t stopped sobbing.  The grief is just so overwhelming these days.

6 days until Alexander’s 11th birthday

Alexander’s 11th birthday is in 6 short days.  In the years since his death, I’ve gone through varying emotions near his birthday. In the early years, I was definitely very sad and needed to hide from the world.  The last couple of years, I’ve been sad but better able to cope.   I haven’t cried in a long time but today I can’t seem to stop. It took just one small thing to trigger me this morning and my emotions completely overwhelmed me.  The therapist said to let the tears flow but somehow, I’ve got to pull it together before picking Daniel up from school.