Since Alexander died, December has been a tough month for me. This year it will be especially hard because this December 20, it will be 10 years.
Ten years of memories not made together.
Ten years of missed milestones: first day of school, losing a first tooth, learning to tie shoes, riding a bike…so many things we won’t get to do.
Ten years to think about what kind of kid he would be now and the man he would become later in life.
Ten years of missing my sweet boy every single day.
Over the years, there have been genuine moments of happiness but the grief is ever present. This week the grief really seems to be weighing down on me.
Remembering Alexander 
I have been thinking of you and Dan as thissae Anniversary approaches.
I never knew your angel but his photos show a beautiful boy full of life . I am at a loss for words as to how to console you or to give you comfort . This is the biggest loss anyone could have and I don’t want to deminish it . Know you are in our thoughts . Love, Gwyn
Thinking of you this week as you celebrate your precious Alexander.