Our life has been in a fog the past week. The plans we made have all been changed. Dan generally takes off the week between Christmas and New Year’s to participate in the Patriots Week events here in Trenton. He was planning to take Alexander to some of the puppet shows this week and we were really looking forward to taking him to the battles. We just know he would have tried to give one of the Hessians a hug.
As we each deal with our grief, we’re trying to comfort each other as best we can. We talk about Alexander often. Some days we can make it through a conversation without breaking down. More often than not, one of us (usually me), will sob uncontrollably.
Both of us love and miss him so much. I’ve always had a need to express my feelings through writing so I hope by writing a litte every day, my pain will ease just a little. I don’t know how to get past the grief and sense of immense loss I feel.
Our family and friends have shown us a tremendous amount of support over the past 9 days.
What do I do now? How do I go on without my sweet little boy?