Today is Alexander’s 2nd birthday.
It’s such a sad time for me because I’ve really been missing Alexander all day.
We marked this special day with a park dedication in Alexander’s honor. Our neighborhood has a tot lot where the younger kids play. Alexander learned to slide in this play area and enjoyed the time we spent there. When some of our neighbors presented us with the idea of renaming the tot lot for Alexander, we thought it was a great way to keep his memory alive. Our neighbors did all the work (contacting the mayor’s office, going to city council meetings, etc.) of making it happen. My only request was that we hold the dedication on his birthday. I’m happy to say it all worked out. Despite the rainy day, many of our friends and family showed up for the ceremony.
There were also three trees planted near the tot lot area for Alexander.
Following the ceremony, we had lunch with Dan’s family. Since I had been planning a Cinco de Mayo themed birthday party for Alexander this year, we decided to have Mexican. After a filling lunch, we headed to the cemetery to visit Alexander.
The past several days leading up to Alexander’s birthday have been hard on us. Both Dan and I have had some weepy days. We can’t just believe our baby isn’t here with us.
Dan has been looking for about a year for the “perfect” new car. The two requests I had for the car was that it needed to have a back seat for Alexander and that I wouldn’t mind being seen in it. On Friday night, we went into New York City to see a car. Dan is really into electric cars these days and has shown me some real doozies I wouldn’t be caught riding in even if I was heavily disguised. However, the Tesla Model S, I do like.
Unfortunately, because of the rain, the Tesla folks were packing up the car when we arrived. We did get a glimpse of it and Dan was able to ask the salesperson some questions. Going in to see the car was a little sad. Being able to accommodate Alexander was the big reason to get a family sedan and now he isn’t here with us to share the car.
The car “show” was at The Plaza Hotel so we decided to have a drink at the Oak Bar. I’ve never been to this landmark establishment but Dan visited years ago. The bar is beautiful. Our service started a little slow but we enjoyed a nice evening of cocktails and appetizers. We even got a free dessert that was absolutely delicious!
It’s been a long and exhausting week. Dan and I really appreciate all the support we’ve received during these very difficult last 4 months and especially today on Alexander’s birthday.
Michelle, you and Dan were in my thoughts today. Happy Birthday to sweet Alexander. It’s very nice your neighbors coordinated having a tot lot for your fun-loving, affectionate little boy. I’m so sorry we missed it. I actually got very weepy thinking about Joshua not being able to play with Alexander on his second birthday, then I thought of how cute Alexander was at Joshua’s birthday in his dallas cowboys attire. Joshua wore his Cowboys jersey just for Alexander today. We all miss Alexander so very much. May his memory always be kept alive with our thoughts of special moments with him. Keep staying strong!
Michelle….We are thinking of you today on Alexanders Birthday….We love you little guy!!!
Michelle & Dan,
We hadn’t heard about the playground being dedicated to Alexander. That’s really wonderful. The love & support so many have shown you is truly moving. You’re always in our thoughts and prayers.
What a beautiful legacy in Alexander’s memory. I can only imagine how hard the day (and probably more so the days leading up to it) were. I wish he was in your arms. Even though I know the brevity of life, I still have days when I struggle with my boys, especially my two yr old., but now I think of Alexander when I’m struggling w/ Elijah and thank God that I am struggling with a tantrum or whining, rather than grief because he’s not with me. I’m still praying for you Michelle. May God give you moments of peace and remember, it’s okay to be angry!
Rachel, you put in to words how I feel. I never know how to express things, but your comments really reflect the way I feel too. Love you Michelle.
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