Feeling blah

I’ve been feeling blah all week.  I just can’t seem to get motivated to do much and I have a lot I need to get done.  Next week is a busy one for and includes giving a speech at a dinner.  I’ve started writing it but can’t seem to finish.  

I’m not visiting Alexander’s grave site every day anymore.  I’m still there most days but am trying to spend a day or two each week visiting the tot lot named for him.  It’s good for me to go and remember the time we played together in the tot lot.  I can still remember his running up the ramp to get on the slide.  Once he mastered sliding, he just loved doing it.  Whenever we went someplace that had a slide, he had to get on it.

I have a meeting next week to discuss distributing the first scholarship from the Alexander Michael Dodson Memorial Scholarship Fund.  It’s great that we’ll help carry on his memory through the fund but I’d rather have my sweet little boy here with me. 

I’m still having such a hard time.  I miss Alexander so much and just want to hold him again.