I’d forgotten how exhausting a newborn could be. Alexander’s younger brother, Daniel was born November 17 and has been keeping me very busy. I barely have time to sleep much less do things like update my blog.
I’ve been so tired, I don’t think I’ve really had a chance to process my feelings about Alexander’s anniversary. It’s hard to believe Alexander has been gone 3 years. On his anniversary date, we spent a quiet day at home and went to cemetery in the afternoon.
Recently, a friend asked me if it gets any easier. I told her I don’t think it gets easier. Alexander’s loss has become part of me and is something I must deal with on a daily basis. Some days are better than others. Now that Daniel has arrived, I’m trying to find a balance between being happy for the child that I have here with me and being sad and missing the child that is gone.
I talk to Daniel about Alexander and we look at pictures of him. I think Alexander and Daniel would have been great friends and I wish my boys could have grown up together.
Roberto Negron used to be my Pastor and mentioned you in a short convo we had. My daughter Gianna Eve Hadjis just passed away January 15th 2012. She was swinging on an unsturdy TV stand and the TV crushed her. Im broken and I dont know what to do or who to talk to. I dont know how to find strength. She was only 4yrs old and full of life. Shes all I had. Plz feel free to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org Thank you