Dan and I attended a remembrance ceremony today hosted by the SIDS Center of New Jersey. God and prayers were mentioned too many times for me but it was still a beautiful service. It was very emotional. At one point, they did a slideshow of our children. Seeing Alexander’s big brown eyes staring back at me from the large screen at the front of the room was so hard.
We both left the service feeling emotionally drained. Dan said he hadn’t felt that way since Alexander’s funeral service on December 23, 2008.
I miss Alexander so, so much.
Remembering Alexander 
While it sounded like a very special ceremony, I am sure it was incredibly difficult to see Alexander’s photo on the screen. We’d all much rather have him here. Thinking of you both even more right now- my heart just hurts thinking about it and of course I am crying now. I wish there was something I could do to help ease your pain.