Dan and I had dinner last night at the home of friends. We hadn’t seen their kids in a while and I was a little nervous seeing them because their youngest is Alexander’s age. She just turned 2.
When we finally arrived and I saw her, my first was that she’s certainly getting tall and the second thought was she looks like Alexander. Alexander and this little girl have been mistaken for brother and sister before. I didn’t see the resemblance but now that she’s experience a growth spurt and is taller, slimmer and her hair free flowing the way I let Alexander’s grow (her hair was neater), I can really see it.
This little girl has always been a shy around me but last night, she seemed to warm up to me. She kept bringing me toys to play with her and I read her a couple of books before she went to bed. Perhaps, she sensed how much I was missing Alexander and was trying to cheer me up.
All in all, it was a good night spent with good friends.
Came across your blog from a comment you left on another blog. I am SOOO sorry your baby isn’t with you to cuddle, kiss, and love. I read through some of your posts and just feel so bad for you. I’ve never heard of SUDC before, only SIDS. I’m grieving too, but in a different way; my daughter was stillborn. I ache that I don’t have any memories of her outside my womb. You ache much more I think because you know WHO you’re missing. I will be praying for peace for you, at least that you would have moments of peace. I pray that you have great hope in knowing where Alexander is, though you’re heartbroken he’s not with you. Zephaniah 3:17
I am so glad your evening turned out good. It can really go either way around other children. Just take it step by step and let your heart lead the way.
I am glad you two had a good night, you deserve it. The little girl sounded like a sweetie. Kids are very perceptive- I am glad she took extra good care of you Michelle.