Since Alexander passed, the first week of May has been difficult for me. This year was no different. Alexander’s 4th birthday was May 3 followed quickly by Mother’s Day a few days later.
I didn’t want to see or talk to anyone on Alexander’s birthday so spent the day alone in quiet reflection looking at his pictures and videos. When Dan got home from work, we went to the cemetery and released 4 balloons.
On Mother’s Day, Dan and I visited a local sculpture park. We had a nice lunch and walk through the park while talking about Alexander and life. It was a little hard to see the park full of families with their young children but I’m glad we went.
I recently bought myself a charm necklace. The sterling silver charm includes Alexander’s name below a raised heart. I love it and wear it almost every day. I find myself rubbing it constantly throughout the day whenever I think about Alexander.
I wish he was here now to give me a big hug.
Remembering Alexander 
Kia ora I wear a beautiful moonstone pendant around my neck every day. A good friend of mine gave it to me when my baby son died. Tomorrow it will be four months since his passing on December 13 2011. He was 18 months old when he died. Like you I think about Manawa constantly. I don’t know what to say other than we have beautiful children who are watching over us like our guardian angels.